Saturday, April 25, 2009

BTQ170! + MyDaily

BedTime's Qoute[170] - forgot to count
"A house can't stand with one element only, it needs many elements to make it stand such as sands, bricks, cements, woods and a human's will to keep it safe". --[x]


It's 2:22am. I haven't slept yet, why should I sleep when I haven't worked hard enough to remember my father today? I'm working hard to be a great someone! I need to do something special before I rest underground. I am [x], an unknown person in the web! who almost quited writing but still lingers to use his fingers to click more characters on his keyboard. I don't need so much muscles to do that, but a huge graveyard of dead braincells to dig. 
I've been home for 10 months now since June 2008. Many things happened, many things I have seen but how lazy were I to record them all! Mabye I got a bit brainwashed by the great wave of Arabian-traditionalist behaviour of laziness and close-minded thinking methods. I don't even know if those terms even existed in the last line I typed. 
Being the head of the house isn't an easy thing, in fact it's like being a president except that it should be in a tiny pure environment without lies and sins limited by four walls not few countries and some oceans. I have to please mother then displease her, please brothers then displease them accordingly and chronologically depending on the moment and place!

I never went to graveyards, and when I did I never expected it to be my dad's. Since then, and I'm so much changed from inside. 

I never expected my government bothers so much to know everything about me and every creature in this land, It's not like I am that special! for god's sake I can't even be the next president, nor even planning to build a nuclare reactor. In addition, I don't even know how to swim and the only thing I can do is play soccer and cook rice - well something to be proud of! COOK RICE!... there's nothing special about Aarab men except that feeling they get after having a ricey-lunch. The feeling of drowsiness, burping then snoring deeply not to mention farting! 

I can type forever and that won't change the reality of me being [x], which is unknown person to you [not my government because they bother a lot to know me well]. 
The economical crisis isn't helping any side, but it's a wake-up call to the capitalists, that the world isn't only materialistic, nor an empty pocket asking for more loans from your banks. It's not about making money through interest rates. And for those Muslim-bankers, Islamic bank can't be a solution to the problem if they don't really implement a pure islamic system. Otherwise, Islamic solution would look a failure to the capitalist bankers. Therefore, using the Islamic banks as a solution is a bad-step and bad call if it's not trully Islamic, but a name. Last news I read 70% of UAEians are living on loans... 
If people keep taking loans, and never pay back plus -7aram- high interest rate, I religiously wonder how many of those would enter heaven?, logically and unfortunately for UAE, 70% can't so far!  no offense nor discrimination to any nation but UAE is just an example, and Kuwait can be even a sadder example!. 

Note: Thanks for reading, and sorry for killing some of your braincells reading my unbeneficial words.

Good night dear readers.  

Monday, April 06, 2009

Miss You.

I miss this place so much, since my father death I have gaven up writing for myself. I have written some notes but didn't bother to publish them. I can't even add another line beyond this, I don't know whom to write about, pointless thoughts have conquered me. 

Psychological Status: Sad 4  father, happy @ school.
Political Status: Being spied on.

Have a good night dear readers.